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[Aug. 26th, 2004|01:53 am] |
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| | blue oyster cult - dont fearthe reaper | ] |
so i dunno if anyone reads my livejournal cause ith ink evetryone gave up hope on me ever coming back. but thats alrightif someone happens to stumble upon this so be it. if not then this journal is for the SL. lots of loves are leaving for college tomorrow. end of summer is so depressing. my brothers leaving along with i dunno how many of my friends... then mostthe rest within the week. depressing. i have some kiddies left though... i got kids in my grade? who i javrnt talked to in i dunno how goddamn long.. i havet he seniors..cause im a junior for anyone who doesnt know.and uhh the seniors this yera kinda bite but some ofthem are lovely. the rest of my friends that will still be here are 18-22 most being around 20. and ilove them dearly but i dunno how healthy it is for me. whatever though i guess the accept me even though im young, butim still the very dramatic teenager.. and they dont like that part. but they understand for the most part. me and pd (20) yeah i know hot. but umm ok my journal was mostly about him then i deleted it as youc an see below from walter finding it. but yeah he ebing the main one i scared off with my drama and crazyness but we always somehow end up talking again.. thats hwy i love him cause i know hes still weirded out by lots of shit i caused buthell never ignore me if i need him NEVER.and weve been in some pretty fuckign intense fights..butit always ends. and the bad is ended for good now. today we talked and he said he still hold shit against me(which is understandable) but he was like ill let it go when i see thatyou have... so ill just let him see it cause its there. 4 years ago id just refer to him as my husband./hes got a good heart and i justthink we'll be friends for a very long time if we can after everything.hes just like me. i hope hes always around cause i love him. he makes mehappy. then there was lets see JAY. one of his real good friends... (21) yeah... when me and phil were on one of our off times.. which this time last about two or so months maybe more.. i got to know JAY.. mistake? im still not sure..he kinda wants to be phil. no joke. i mean not really but really. its weird. he only wanted to get to know me when things with me and phil (him bitching about how crazy i was cause id alwaysyell at him) thats when jay wanted to starttalking to me? but since i was like fuck phil i was like uh ok hey jay. and hed always wanna hang o he was like sarah sraah dsraahahstatha. and i was kinda like whoooaaaa chill./but i started liking him..then hed do things to piss meoff and i was like uhh no and hed try to act liek phil and fight with me and id just be like um no i dont care. butthen i started tomiss him and i tried but hes a dick cause he wants me to obsess overhim and i wont.. and while hes at it hes fucking phils ex girlfriend of two years. YEAH. sorry hes not even close to phil. cause pd makes me happy andjay makes memad. hooray.but yeah soim glad phil and i talked today. i wish everyone the best of luck at college..i have to work tomorrow unfortunately. oh benetton how i love you.. traffic in the commons i hateyou. phil working att he north face right across from me i love you. blah i tried to put pictures of the boys in and i cant im mad but. alright im tiyaadd. fuckin later. |
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[Aug. 25th, 2004|02:49 am] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
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| | as i lay dying- forever | ] |
welllll hello. its 2 30 in the morning and im really bored so i decided i would startusing my livejournal again. i didnt have time overthe summer anyway.. and im always on myspace so no time for the old lj. butttt i looked at sineads and i missed it. i dont have a lot of friends on here cause i dont use it. its not friends only i just ummmmmm cant put peoples screen names on here anymore because then it can be searchde and found by wrong people./ school starts soon that sucks buttttt this summer has been fabulous. lots going on.. new times new boys new job new car. yeah sar! i got a 94 black jetta and umm it fucking rules basically i love it and ic ant wait to drive to school this yera and justbe like hi i rock. i now work at the benetton outlet in woodbury commons.. italian clothing store... good money easiest friggen job ever. and its right across fromteh north face where PD works so if we ever get break att he same time we chat it up...luke moved to queens today. bye luke. peat. nice knowing you. right... yeah im not even getting into boys in this entry because i just cannot. but it will comeup im sure cause theres lots to say. ha. i need myf uckign schedule for school somethign fuckedup and i dont have it and im pissed.and i dont have my car cause the sunroof needed to get fixed cause it was stuck or something, an dits the eletrical kind and the guys was like umm ih ad to take your whole roof off .. COOL. i wouldve just left itbrken if i kenw id be carless for the next few days. my mom lets me use her car though...but shes strict with it. and i wantmine cause i want no rules. i was never one for rules..eghhh im tired. im gonna start writing in this again though.. cause i feel like it and i do what i want ok fucking laaaaater |
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[May. 24th, 2004|09:56 am] |
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uhh yeah soooo... sorry i had to delete every entry because umm most of em were bitching about nonsense.. and yeah so walter decided to search 'tilyourbleeding' in google. what comes up?? MY JOURNAL. yeah cause i had copied and pasted somethings phil said to me.. yeah so walter read alllllllll my bitching now. he swore he wouldnt say anything and hes like its okkk i dont care. but still! my journal isnt for boys. especially phils best friends. i dont even care im glad it was him than anyone else i guess cause hes real understanding but whatever. i think walter reads my journal now so i gotta be careful. WALTER WHY AREY OU READNING MY JOURNAL. i knew these fuckin things were a bad idea. |
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